Saturday, June 27, 2015
Rememebering my last visit to my Uncle Irving
"If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness." Paul II Corinthians
Today thinking of the Mowry family reunion that I attended two weeks ago, I suddenly began recalling the last days of one son of Ida Mowry Jenckes, my Uncle Irving Jenckes Dying of cancer, he was being cared for at home and I went to visit him. When he learned that I was downstairs waiting to see him, he asked that I be brought upstairs to his bedside. When I saw him, he was sitting reading his Bible which he did daily. He asked my Aunt Winnie, his wife, to leave us alone and then he began reading aloud to me from St Paul's Letter to the Corinthians--the great teaching about love:
"If I should speak with the tongue of man and angels but have not love, I am as tinkling brass or clanging cymbals." He would pause and ask me what each line meant. He was very intense and his gaze searched my face fiercely. When he got to the lines that begin--"When I was a child" and conclude "Now that I am a man I put away childish things."He came to a full stop.
"Explain this to me," he demanded. He asked, " what are the childish things?"
I remember that I thought--why he reads this Bible every day, he is a staunch Baptist--he must know the answers.
Then I thought again --maybe he is aware that now I have a PhD. and he is asking me as a scholar to interpret the lines. Such a self-flattering thought to calm my nerves--so I took up the old, worn Bible and read the passage aloud several times. Then I treated it as if it were a problem of literary criticism--some crux in a sonnet by Shakespeare or a dense passage from Eliot's The Wasteland. I explained to Irving that the childish things could be the toys, the tantrums, the willful disobedience and defiance of youth.
I'll never forget how he looked at me and said simply,"No, try again." after I tried and he repeated that direction three times, I put the Bible down and said "OK I give up." And he asked me directly what childish things I had given up, discarded--and in the throes of my prideful agnosticism I thought and I wanted to blurt out--
my rosaries, my scapulars, my novenas, my childish Faith--
I said nothing, just picked up the leather bound volume and resumed reading. When I reached the point about "seeing through a glass darkly",he stopped me again--"what is that glass and why darkly?"
Then I had another not so brilliant thought--oh, he is dying and he is reading Corinthians for solace--. So I mustered up my Platonism and told him that the fact that we have bodies and eyes of flesh permits us to see only material, earthly things but when we die and our spirits are free of the constraints of the physical then we will know the spiritual truth of everything.
Well--he said wearily--that's a start.. He dropped his head back on the pillow and closed those eyes. Almost on cue my Aunt Winnie came into the room to say that I should go down for tea with my cousins, Mary, Grace and Roberta. And I must admit I was glad to leave that room.
It has taken me many years to see that interview less darkly and to understand that Irving was not asking me questions for his sake, he was doing it for my sake. He was bearing witness, using his scarce energy to raise questions in my mind about FAITH, HOPE and LOVE.
He was acting like that notorious HOUND OF HEAVEN, acting on behalf of that GOOD SHEPHERD, seeking that lost sheep that was his niece and turning me towards eternity.
"Whoever brought me here will have to take me home," Rumi
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